If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile you know that normally on Tuesdays I post a room that I find inspiring. You’ll also know that I haven’t posted a Totally Inspiring Room or any other posts for something like a month now. You might also know that I go through short spells of burnout in which I post nothing… but I haven’t gone this long between posts since I first started my blog.
While I won’t get into specifics, I will say that I got thrown a curve that nearly derailed me permanently, the kind that makes you want to throw in the towel and admit you’re beaten… So, I stepped away from this blog for a really long moment in order to assess if I still wanted to continue down the path that, to my mind anyway, this blog stands as an outpost for. Honestly, as of a few days ago, I still hadn’t made up my mind. Everything in my life felt as if it was going crushingly wrong. I couldn’t muster up the energy to fight back…
And then… As crazy as this sounds, I was in my living room playing music, listening to some things I hadn’t listened to for a couple of years and this song came on by Delerium featuring Nerina Pallot on vocals. It’s called Truly. Here are some of the words:
I know good things
I know bad as well
Any witness of the road can tell
If there is sorrow
There is beauty and trust
A secret pearl inside the heart of us
So truly there is life and I want to see it
Now that I know what I am living for
Truly there is joy and I want to feel it
Here in this world is where I want to be
Cause I can’t cry anymore
That’s just a part of it…
Maybe it’s silly that the words to a song could give me hope and remind me that “the world is calling out, saying it won’t be the same… it’s time to try my luck again” but it did. It made me realize that I started this blog with an intention. That I had and still have an end in mind and I haven’t reached it yet. I’ve got to be willing and able to get back up when life knocks me on the ass.
So here’s me getting up.
Getting back into the fray.